Charlottesville
Oct 11th 1862
My dear Henry
I arrived safely home
Saturday–my general health is improved
but my arm & leg is ever worse–I have
been advised by Dr. Doaghe, Waddell &c
to try the use of the Battry[?] & Strichine[?]
but yr Pa feels timid about it, and
so I have made no experiments–I
have lost all hopes of ever being able
to use my and & leg, but yet am
willing to try any & all remedies for the
prospect ahead, if my Life is spared, is
a gloomy one–I feel so disturbed
at the idea of being a burden all
my days–whilst yr dear Father lives
Life to me is tolerable even situated
as I am -Yet when the idea crosses
my mind, that I may possibly
outlive him–dark & gloomy are my
forebodings–his Love & affection in=
creases with my infirmities–his patience
& kind attentions knows no bounds–on his
account do I feel most sensibly my mis-
fortune–and at this time most especially
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when his mind is so harassed and torn
asunder by the direful situation of
our country–clouds & darkness are
thickening on every side–we can see
no cheering light ahead–our state
is covered with blood the dead & wounded
lie all around turn which ever way
you may nothing meets your eye, but
naked, maimed & bleeding soldiers in
rags & want–yes suffering for the very
necessaries of Life–I have seen with
my own eyes sights that ought to melt
hearts of stone–thousands coming up
from Winchester & lying on the McAdimised
road-worn out soul & body–some weeping
bitterly, others just ready to die for a cup
of milk or slice of bread–500 ambu
lances came in one day whilst I was
at Mr Crawfords with those so badly wounded
they could not walk–hundreds had
their wounds dressed in the streets by the
negroes, & women–even the Crawford
girls & Mittie took a part in trying to
cleanse some of their wounds from the dust
flies & dirt which had accumulated on
their 3 days journey up–lately we have
had several letters from [?] & G M
Winchester is being evacuated by our
armies as provisions have run out, &
the suffering for food & forage is immense
one half are moving towards Gordonsville
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& the other towards Augusta County–all
they get to eat has to be carried by wagons
so you may guess how scarce things
are–and the prices are beyond belief
butter in Staunton last week was selling
for 80 cts Bacon 50- lard 50- Honey 75
sugar $100–Coffee $2–& no corn meal
what think you of that? Our Bacon is
out & we now have to give the negroes beef
at 1 [$ per lb?] our expenses are enormous-
our family is large – John M is here
and anxious for a consummation of his
affections–which I wrote to you about
& asked yr advice, as to whether it
would be best for the matter to come
to a speedy close or wait until a
more propitious time–you have not
giving me yr [?]–I dread giving up
Va–so much it will be a great trial
to me–she has been a wonderful
comfort to me since my sickness-
in deed you all have shown me a
degree of Love & affection I had never
flattered myself with having therefore
I feel overwhelmed with love & gratitude
not only to you all, but to God who
has put such virtues into yr hearts-
he will reward you all for it in his
own good time–do write me and
if you could get the Linen & gloves &
what is the price of those articles
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Many deaths from S Fever have occurred
here–Mr Halback Gentry of the Firm of
Wertenbaker & Co died this morning–
Yellow Jaundice is very prevalent–Nannie
& Howe stay very [?] at the Hospital
about 15 lads at the University–I
reckon the book stores are doing a fine
business & I am not sorry for any loss
the great secessionists may meet with–
Carroll has a good school–Mrs Carroll
is still with her relations in Bath and is
feasting so richly dont intend coming
home for a long time–We have just learned
that Dr Bledsoe had died suddenly yester
day in Richd Cam Gatewood had a sever
sabre cut on his head–Jas M. Leitch Polk
Points[?] & Charly Wood have been released
as Prisoners & arrived yesterday–Henry Massie
had gone to Danville to see about Mrs Stanly
Mr Stanly died very suddenly with Paralysis
yesterday week–Letty Cocke is in exactly the
same state of health she was two years ago
if not worse–Sue & Frederick has come in to
live for good, and Ellen & Ann will soon
follow–Goddard is in Columbia in very
wretched health–several of sister Carrie’s
nephews were killed at Sharpsburgh
[3 illegible names]–do write
soon & believe me as ever yr devoted
Mother
Letter to Henry Cochran
MSS 9380