[from the daily journal of Anne Madison Willis Ambler]
Monday, July 30, 1862
I arose very early thinking I would get through all
my duties so that I might enjoy my letter. But
I was doomed to be disappointed about that letter.
I had set my heart too much on it & “it is ever
thus.” Mr. Downs came back from Mr. Leonard’s & said that
our letters had been sent to Mr. Beverly’s. There was
one from bro Tom to mother. : Oh I never felt more
biterly disappointed in my life. I had waited with
all the patience I could command for a week &
I had no more. I could imagine you were dead.
There is such an awful silence about you. But
one great comfort I have I know you are wel attended
to & I must learn to bear without a murmur this
trying separation. I hope it may blessed unto
me & teach me many lessons.
Sis B and I rod to Cousin Tom’s. G. Marshall…I was
very much pleased with the girls–am determined
I will go to see them oftener when I get back
to Clifton: They were very affectionate & kind–
We came back by Clifton to get some rose slips.
–got off our horses & walked along the lane to eat
raspberries– How often have we walked there
together. That first winter we spent at Clifton,
I remember our waling up that way so often &
I would make Massie go too- for fear she might
be induced to do wrong in my absence– How
I watched over her. I couldn’t feel more uneasy
or try to act more conscientiously for my own child. God
grant me a better result for my labors.
[1972 transcript by Anne Madison Wright Baylor]